Senior Year

Senior Year

I cannot believe that I'm finally in my Senior year at college! It seems like just yesterday that I was getting ready to move to Tacoma. But here I am, trying to focus on my last year of schooling before I head off to the big bad real world.

I'm loving living in an apartment, finally. I can't believe I've spent the last three years sharing a room with another girl. This apartment situation is much better. I have my own room and get to cook my own food. Yummy! Although, at times, it's hard to live with three other girls, I'm really enjoying most of it. After years of living with my two brothers, it was weird to come to school and live only with girls. But I suppose it's okay.

I'm working on writing my capstone this fall. Ick. Sometimes I cannot believe that other at other schools you don't have to write a capstone or really do much at all to graduate. But here at Pacific Lutheran University, every undergraduate has to write a capstone, which is pretty much like a graduate student's thesis. It is insanely stressful. I want to write my paper on wine prices, but we'll see what it is actually about when I finish in December. Most of the time I don't believe that I'm smart enough to write a capstone paper, let alone be graduating from college.

What am I going to do when I leave school and have to get a job/work all the time? Is life ever fun again after school? Where will I live? Will I have to continue to live here on the west side of the state? Or will I be able to find a job in Eastern Washington where my heart really is? I desperately want to move back to the valley but my decision will be based on where I find a job. I still don't really know what kind of job I can get with an Economics major and a Statistic minor. Any help out there?

Work has been INSANE. I don't know how to deal with those people anymore. My friend Amy has run off to Europe and left us all high and dry. Being a senior employee, I feel I know more than most and that means I do more than most. Not such a great thing since I was told I wasn't going to be a student manager anymore this year. I got demoted. What's up with that?! They said they weren't going to hire any more student managers so I figured, whatever. At least I'll be like everybody else again, right? Wrong. They then went and hired eight more student managers while I was home for the summer. Was I one of them? Nope. Was I asked? Nah. Do I get a pay cut? Yup. Do I hate having to listen to people who haven't worked here as long tell me what do do? Oh yes. Not that I really want to be a manager, I just wish people who are managers, weren't.

That's all for tonight. It's a long one. And perhaps not such a happy one. But it's how I feel and that's what really matters, right? I'm off to eat some ice cream and perhaps watch a movie. I need to relax after a long day like today.

As always,
Cait




We learn and change, or we harden into stone.